When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. Isaiah 43:2
Trust the wait. Embrace the uncertainty. Enjoy the beauty of becoming. When nothing is certain, anything is possible.
Today, in my Puerto Rico experience I experienced two sides of a coin. We went snorkeling in Culebra island, and it was amazing; I actually challenged myself to go into the deep waters despite of my fear. I was able to see a few coral reefs, but I wouldn’t go deeper to see more because I was honestly still afraid. It was pretty amazing for me to be in water of such depth, my heart racing and my mind chattering up a storm. I felt somewhat proud of doing so, the snorkeling team told us that the water was 18-22 feet deep, which is twice as deep as the pools I’ve been in so I was pretty excited to be comfortable in deeper water. Eventually I asked for a life belt, because I wanted to be extra careful not to get tired in the water and worried that I would drink saltwater and choke (remember my mind was chattering). The ocean to me is amazing and beautiful, yet so uncertain. One of my greatest fears, is uncertainty. I’ve battled with uncertainty all of my life and more so in my hesitancy to surrender fully to God. Uncertainty is a fear of the unknown, it keeps people from going after their dream and taking risks. You just never know what will happen, and the uncertain paradigm automatically believes something negative will happen. And for the past month, I’ve been going through a test of trust where uncertainty has made its way back up to the surface! Despite of all that I have overcome, uncertainty is still a giant that I must defeat.
Giants are things in our lives that are overcome, and destroyed. Things that are developed by association and practice like thought patterns (paradigms) and psychological issues (fears, obsessions, worry, depression, etc.) are giants. Some giants are sicknesses, which come from stress, resentment and from believing a lie (so we have to be careful when believing what is spoken over us, even by doctors). Giants are distinct from weakness because they taunt he victim. Like David slaying Goliath with a sling and a rock. David said who is this, defying the people of the living God day and night?! And I the name of God, He was able to defeat the giant. (1 Samuel 17)
We enjoyed the snorkeling adventure for about 2 hours, and headed to the next destination: Flamenco beach. The boat was not able to dock by the shore, so they parked in a location which made it possible for us to swim safely to shore. This time I jumped in the water, and headed to shore. Except this time I got tired! My mind immediately made me aware that I could not stand in the middle of the ocean, so I began to float. By this time my heart is racing, and I did not feel safe: my friend a Yessy grabbed my hand and said ‘calm down!’. My body calmed down enough to float and swim a few inches, but my mind started chattering again. I started saying ‘I can’t, I can’t’, and my body was becoming too heavy for my friend to reach standing ground. Two men came to swim me over, but even while standing on solid ground: I told them I couldn’t stand there. That’s a perfect picture of what fear does. Fear of the unknown robs you of strength, confidence and possibility.
Declaration: I declare that I am overcoming uncertainty, because I know God is certain! I declare I will be protected and guided through life. I declare I will have peace because I keep my mind on God at all times and I am safe in Him.
Dear Lord, thank you such a wonderful time and new things learned about you, the works and even myself. I’m sorry for my trust issues, I pray you restrengthen my confidence in you so that I may surrender and not be afraid of being in your will. I pray we all believe and know that we are secure in your hands. I pray for people who are defied by different fears and phobias, praying you give them strength and confidence in your love for them. I know that your plans for us are good, even if you allow for us to go through negative situations too. I know you are for us and not against, and I ask you that if we ever become weary in believing you would come to our rescue. In Jesus name, Amen.